Tuesday, September 28, 2010

just a thought...

ok, so i really intened to do this ALOT more often than i have! now that everything is starting to settle hopefully i can get back to it. i may not catch the nine months up completely but just hit the high points.

but for now before it's time to feed again...i could just sit and stare at the most beautiful creation God has ever created. how did i get to be a part of such a beautiful thing?! Mollie is the absolute most amazing thing that has ever happened in my lifetime. just looking over at her now makes my head swell up with so much pride, my eyes fill up to the brim with tears, and my heart swell up with so much love i can hardly stand it! thank you God for this miracle You created in me!

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Catching up.....Monday February 1, 2010

We were in court today.... haven't seen Sidda since a weekend at beginning of December. That's right, we haven't had Christmas at this point. Things went fairly well, for us anyway, she gets to come every weekend from now until August to make up for missed time, and two extra weeks in the summer! Not, exactly the same, but a little law enforced structure for a little while.


Today was also our first Dr. visit! We got to hear the heartbeat and our first ultrasound. Heartbeat was good and strong at 157 and she was a 1/2 inch long! We're 8 weeks along, which is another little surprise! Josh saw the first picture and automatically said it was a boy... go figure. I told him he better watch out after all the teasing he has done about another couple having a girl, it will backfire on him! Found out our due date is September 13th..... NOT A FRIDAY THIS YEAR! (It's also my step-sister's birthday!)

NO sickness in two whole days!!!! YAY!!!!

Catching up....January 29, 2010

THE SNOW CAME!!! I did get in trouble by my mother-in-law "dr. oz" bc i got out and played and went sledding with friends....whoops! i'm pregnant, not disabled, right? we had a blast! did they really expect me to stay inside and make hot chocolate for everyone else?! I THINK NOT!!!! ha


P.S. .... kinda fortunate that in the very beginning i decided to somewhat keep a journal for our new baby about things that have happened during the pregnancy. (thanks mom!) so, in case you were wondering how in the world i would remember all this, that's how lol!

Friday, August 13, 2010

So, I"m deciding to start this blog, mostly because I've been put on bedrest, and have nothing better to pass my time with. Maybe I should have started this a long time ago and kept everyone up to date on things happening. I guess I should catch you up to date then to begin with.


January 20, 2010
Today was the day I found out we were pregnant. Josh does not know yet. I have cried all morning. YES, I love children. Was i sure i wanted to become a mother yet, not so much. What i didn't know was how hard it would be to tell Josh. He found out THREE days later. Yes, three.


January 22, 2010
There is a girl's trip planned. I have been dog sick for about a month on and off, and now i know why. Yes & No am i looking forward to this trip or even want to go anymore. Late tonight Josh still doesn't know. Still late tonight, am i trying to convince myself to tell Josh. He knows i'm having a hard time deciding on whether to go or not (big surprise right? i'm the QUEEN of decision making! HA) He's having an even harder time understanding why. You never do anything you want to do, this is your chance, please go and have a  good time he says. SO, luckily, earlier in the morning when i got off work, i had made a onsie with "baby brown 00" on the back of it to look like a softball jersey, wrapped the positive test in it, and wrapped it. I bite the bullet and retrieve it from under the bathroom sink where it's been hiding for 3 days. I hand it to Josh and puzzled, he opens it. His exact words are, "What IS this?..........What are you saying?........What is this stick thing? ARE YOU SERIOUS?!" I wish i had the camera out for that one, I will never forget the look on his face, and the way it made me feel. Rushed, excited, scared, overwhelmed, but most of all secure and loved. Not that i want or like to see Josh cry, but the feeling that rushes over me in times like those make me so glad i married my best friend. That sincerity and security is worth anything. Anyway......I DID NOT want to tell parents/family yet. I was hoping to wait until after first ultrasound, and make cute little cards, blah, blah, blah. If you know Josh, YOU KNOW Sidda gets it honest on keeping secrets. Not a single cell in their body can hold anything in for longer than it takes to walk across the room to someone else, lol. He takes a picture of the onesie and sends it to our parents, and the race is on! Who can call back the fastest?! So much for the Valentines!




ok, there is enough for now, i'm actually sleepy and i'm pretty sure i'll have PLENTY of time to finish the update in the days to come......